what the hell.

been out of it lately. mainly my mom not allowing me to have the freedom i need. i need to have some friends to hang out with, you know. i don't think my mom knows that.

in other news; i absolutely love the few friends i have. i have them to lean on ~

especially christina <33 and roop and katie. you guys are there for me, and I'll try my best to be there for you.

friday the 13th?

oh fuck my life.

just totally realized i'm doing my piano exam on friday the 13th.
if that doesn't say bad luck, i don't know what will ... i hope i didn't jinx that.

now i must go pray to the heavens ( instead of practicing )

summer blues . . .

thought summer would be a whole bunch of relaxation and all that nice crap. it's not.

been feeling under the weather with a piano theory exam on august 6th, followed with a practical piano exam the next friday. i swear, my father has been making me play so much piano, i'm starting to build callouses on my finger tips. it hurts just typing right now /sigh

after piano exams, i'll be gone for 3 weeks. at least i get some vacation time before school starts!

so far summer was full of piano practicing, piano studying, a bunch of math tutor homework things, and sitting in front of the computer. hopefully i'll get out of the house soon enough! maybe take some photography ~

dentist appointment today

I woke up even sicker than I was last night.
/sigh

Also, also, I went to the dentist to get a filling.
and 2 hours later, half my face is still numb, and uncontrollable.
Dentist, you lied D: You said 1-2 hours! ><

Well, at least I found out that I could flare one nostril when it's numb...
/really too interested.

i'm an owl.

i think i'm becoming nocturnal.
i can only sleep after school (afternoon)
while on the couch watching television.

at night, i can barely close my eyes...

harsh?

short tempered. impatient. angry. cold.

I like to think that my personality is what people like about me.

I forgot to mention; sarcastic.

Busy all week!

List of complaints:

1) current events, didn't start it at all.
2) bio flash back in science.
3) piano exams in the summer; practice every day D:
4) chinese exam this saturday.
5) chinese essay, that I didn't know about due this saturday.
6) brainchild homework I only did two pages of, due tomorrow.

There could possibly be more, but I'm a lazy arse.
And I need to start my homework.

im serious.

I came home from school, hoping I would eat a quakers oats and honey bar...
Only to pick up four min choco balls from purdy's along with it.

Not only did I eat that bar...
I ate the chocolate too DD:

/dies

FEELING A BIT HAPPY.

when my whole family plays tennis together.
when we play tennis in the rain.
when, for once, my parents don't fight with each other.
when we can actually have fun together.
when everything seems like it's perfectly normal, for this one moment.

NOT ENOUGH WILL POWER.

I want to start losing weight, I'm serious. But whenever I see food, I just NEED to eat it! Even when I'm not hungry. Especially when I'm bored. I can't control myself, and I keep saying, "Oh, time to start eating healthy and exercising!" but it never really starts. I hope to get slimmer by the end of summer, or before that New York trip next spring.

/fingers crossed

T^T

I skinned my knees/legs.

and it stings like a bitch D:

Get the fuck out.

What the hell is this.

We can be considered friends since grade 8 - but I don't think it's like that anymore.
I know when I'm excluded - so you don't have to worry about making up lies.

I hope I can get you out of my fucking life.

I need new friends.

Screw it.

There are a lot of times when I wish for a reset button on life.

I think I've had enough.

Please go away now.

sdgfldshfsd

I hate you because when "someone" isn't home, you're always yelling at us.

STOP.

I gotta stop procrastinating.

WTFOMG

I THINK I MISPLACED MY CELLPHONE.

FML.

AND I CAN'T RETRACE MY STEPS BECAUSE ALL I REMEMBER WAS THAT I WAS HELL AS TIRED, PMS-ING AND GROUCHY THE LAST TIME I USED IT. WHICH HAPPENED TO BE LAST SATURDAY. IN THE STATES. FUCKFUCKFUCK.

YER!

Only excitement of the day:
knowing I'll be watching Alice in Wonderland with bbV, my little sister, and my mom (;
Your parents can never be too old to be your best friends.

I learned that through patience, and a whole bunch of other stuff.

plz stop nao.

oh. my. gawd.
a new day, and i'm feeling wayyyy shittier than the day before. WHYYY??
it feels like a thousand knives are constantly being jabbed into my head. in and out. in and out. my nose is running, and some of it contains blood, ew, i know. my nose is also stuffy, my throat hurts from coughing, and my constant sneezing isn't helping the headache that's gradually becoming more painful.
my eyes are watery, and some of my sneezes are stuck in my nose, which is uncomfortable T___T

SOMEONE SAVE MEEE.

feeling like shit.

feel like shit, sound like shit, i probably look like shit too :/
after they left, i ended up doing leopard prints on my nails, which i'll maybe post a picture of tomorrow on my tumblahh, and/or here.
anyway, after doing my nails, i knocked myself out on the couch in the midst of watching the suite life of zack and cody.
i woke up 2 hours later, and mommy made me congeee, which i'm super happy about. Fish + congee = <3 Congee tastes awesome when I'm sick :)

should prolly sleep now, so i can wake up tomorrow ~ goodnight!